slacker

I confess, I have been a slacker today. I've felt a little under the weather, so my best made plans to workout, run, clean, pretty much anything have been only a passing thought. I actually started to do yoga, but I just couldn't get past the first 5 minutes. blahh...

I'm not sure why, but I've wanted to blog every day since I posted tuesday night at work. I didn't realize how great of an outlet this is. I used to journal all of the time, but I love being able to type out my thoughts, delete stuff, and it forces me to be a little more thoughtful of what I am writing. I'm really bad at writing (which you might figure out as I write entries). I add commas everywhere, I write run-on sentences and sometimes my thoughts are just confusing because they are so flighty. My apologies. I did not choose english as a major for many reasons. You will probably thank me for not being your child's english teacher. I have been reading more blogs lately, and a few of them were started for an outlet as the writer was/is going through some really challenging times. That isn't the case for my situation. However, I have been so convicted lately about my flippant attitude of Christ, and how I feel as though i have taken advantage of His love for me lately. I also really struggle with talking to people (mainly my husband) about issues, or even just thoughts. I grew up as the youngest of 4 and the only girl, so I spent a lot of my time just dealing with issues/thinking about stuff on my own. It's been an eye opening experience in marriage, as I have realized that my husband probably misses out on a lot if I don't share things with him. I don't mean for this to be a way around all of that, but sometimes it's nice to just talk and talk with no interruptions. Whew...did that make any sense?  

Anyway, I managed to make it to bible study tonight, which was on God's attribute : Justice. I never really think about God's justice. We are constantly faced, however, with earthly justice. I guess my biggest fault is that I am so sensitive to being "judged" and criticism that I fear God's justice. (Or just don't think about it) I don't know if anyone else remembers, but I loved in elementary school when we had to solve the "___ is to ____ as ___ is to ___" scenarios. Well, I can't quite figure out the other side of the following equation. So, my plan this week is to really dig in to searching scripture and really devoting my quiet time to learning more about God's justice.

justice : mercy :: ____ : ____

Staying awake...

I'm currently at work trying to stay awake since my blocked time for a two hour nap was more like a light doze, and being woken up multiple times by my phone (thanks, Justin) and my dog. Good times. Our yearly reviews are due by the 31st, and I, of course, have done nothing with it. Also good times!

Lately Justin and I have been trying to keep up with everything that's been going on. I have been working, and Justin has been student teaching. Luckily I am working days right now (with the exception of this week) and we actually see each other. It's nice to see your husband once in a while. Sometimes it felt like we were dating again and just spending a few hours a week with each other. Hopefully once Justin is back in school this summer we will be able to spend more time together. A girl can dream, right?

Quick updates:
* I am training for running in the St. Louis Go! relay marathon. So far I've ran about (a) mile. I guess I  should probably try to run at least 4 by April 10th.

*  Justin and I have been doing P90X, and I've also been doing Turbo Fire (intense cardio kickboxing). I refuse to pay money to join a gym when we can do the programs at home and running is free in our neighborhood :) Justin has had much better success...I really struggle to workout on the days I work, let alone do things like, say, take my dog outside! What will we do when there's a baby in our house? Egads, I don't even want to think about it.

*  We have been so blessed to be getting connected at City Church and in our City Life group. Sometimes J and I struggle with wanting to know what's next, but it's been so humbling to see how God has led us here over the past year.

*  If I could be selfish and ask for prayers, Justin and I were pretty bummed about some news he got todayabout financial aid for Covenant. I BELIEVE God will provide and take care of us. So I am just asking that we will find contentment and peace in Him.

 Have a wonderful Wednesday!